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I Am Here December 2, 2024

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I am amazed it is already December, but I am ready for it! I love all the “things”…baking, gifting, making, sharing, singing,serving…but my favorite things continue to be the quiet morning, still night and mid-day pause when thoughts and hearts turn intentionally toward the reason for the celebration. In some homes a candle is lit for each of the advent themes. This week let us remeber our Hope in Jesus Christ.

I squinted my eyes in the darkened hotel room.  What is that light?  I was desperate to get to sleep early as we planned to get back on the road before sunrise.  Normally, I am a champion sleeper.  My husband says it’s my superpower.  Deep, snore filled, sleep falls on me with the grace of a well-trained fighter pilot landing a plane on an aircraft…and apparently just about as loud.  But not this night.  This night I became hyper focused on a tiny light on the ceiling that seemed to scatter brightness all around the room.  The one small window was shielded with thick shades and drapes. Illuminating sources, like digital alarm clocks or charging phones, were covered with hand towels.  Darkness should have prevailed, but it did not.  No effort to create a darkened room could overcome the impact of the tiniest bit of light emanating from a smoke detector on the ceiling.  That tiny indicator light was loudly proclaiming “I am here, I am working on your behalf” 24/7.

 I’ve thought about that light recently.  I actually have a similarly placed detector in my room at home.  Some things I noticed.  1) In the light of day, the tiny indicator light is barely noticeable.  It is obviously still there, a silent sentry guarding my home.   2) At home I am acclimated to sleeping with moonlight seeping through cracks in the drapes, a bathroom nightlight and all our electronics with LED displays…in the darkness these lights are comforting.  The smoke detector indicator light seems to fade away. 3) No matter my awareness of it, it is still there…always proclaiming, “I am here, I am working on your behalf.”

As I lay in bed last night, the advent theme of HOPE on my mind, my eyes drifted up toward the tiny light on our ceiling.  When it is light, it is difficult to see it.  The darker the surroundings, the more impactful it is. It does not need to be bigger or brighter.  It only needs to exist, ready to share its light and proclaim, “I am here, I am working on your behalf”.

I think this is a lot like the HOPE we have through knowing  God loves us.  Though we may not deserve it, while we all are still sinners, He sent His son (Jesus Christ, whose birth we celebrate at Christmas) to walk among men, glorify His Father in all He did, to die and overcome death on our behalf that we may know forgiveness and grace and not eternal darkness.

He is a light unto the world.  He proclaims to us, “I am here, I am working on your behalf” in our lightest days or darkest hours.  My HOPE is in Him alone…when people, circumstances, or nations unsettle my heart, I will think of that tiny smoke detector light and remember… Darkness will not prevail, He is still here and working on our behalf.

Jesus said, “I am the light of the world; he who follows Me shall not walk in the darkness, but shall have the light of life.”  John 8:12

 

Abigail and Breath Holding March 30, 2024

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In a sermon last week our pastor said, “Don’t rush to the cross.” Out of context, this seems contrary to the “run to the cross” to find God, forgivenss and grace message. But this message was a reminder that sometimes we get in a hurry to celebrate the resurection of Christ, and we miss the important, and necessary, events that take us to that day. This has settled in my heart this week. I am guilty of rushing excitedly, like a child released into an Easter egg hunt field, to gleefully embrace the celebration of Easter, Resurection Day! But the days leading to the cross now sit deep in my thoughts. Today my three granddaughters left after visiting us for a few days. The days were filled with glorious chaos and when they left it was startling how quiet and still the house became. I let out a breath I did not even realize I was holding. Was that first Easter like that? From chaos to stillness…a breath holding pause most did not even know they held. A closed tomb….a waiting world. Here again is my Abigail…this memory will always take away my breath and fill my heart.

Abigail:

          I’ve lost track of how many years ago it was, yet each Spring I can’t
help but recall my introduction to Abigail.  I was a high school
science/Bible teacher for a small Christian school at the time. One of my
students was a football sized young man named Nick.  He worked for a local
farmer who had offered him a young lamb to take home.  Nick’s mom,
apparently destined for sainthood, not only allowed him to bring the lamb home,
but he got to keep it in his room!  Early that Spring Nick brought photos
to share.  To my amazement, there, wedged beside his bed and amid typical
teenage squalor, was a carefully built pen, complete with wood rails, chicken
wire and hay.  Abigail the lamb had found a perfect home.  Over the
next few weeks Nick would have numerous stories to tell of Abigail’s
antics.  I couldn’t wait to see her for myself, so I invited Nick to bring
her to school one morning.

          I ushered my entire class outside and we waited like giddy preschoolers
for Abigail’s arrival.  I am certain I will never be able to adequately
describe what I saw that day.  I will do my best.  We watched as Nick
emerged from his vehicle with Abigail cradled in his big burly arms.  We
stood transfixed by the sight of what can only be inadequately referred to as 
precious”. 
Her pure, white coat seemed almost translucent, radiating light under the
bright blue, cloudless sky.   Her tiny nose was a perfect, pink
velvet triangle perched just above her little pink mouth.    As
I placed my hand on her sweet little head, she looked at me.  I found
myself staring into the depths of clear, brilliant blue eyes.  I realized
I had been holding my breath in awe.  We were expecting to see a cute
lamb, somewhat off white in color.  I had not considered that, unlike the
lambs at the local petting zoo, Abigail had been living in a clean, loving,
environment.  After everyone had made Abigail’s acquaintance, Nick left to
return her home and we settled back into Bible class.

          We soon realized the relevance of Abigail’s visit as we continued our
study of Passover.  The original Passover took place when Moses was
leading the Israelites out of Egypt.  God instructed them to mark their
door post with the blood of a male lamb.  This was to protect them from
the final plague which was the death of all first born in any home not so
protected. (Exodus 11&12) The yearly commemoration of this event required
the father to select the best, blemish free lamb and set it apart for the
Passover…four days prior to the celebration.  My students and I began to
consider something quite startling.  There was a good chance that the lamb
would have been brought into the house or yard during that time.  This
perfect little lamb, probably as precious and sweet as our Abigail, may have
clamored under their feet while they did chores, fed out of their hands and
shared a living area.  After four days, this lamb, which by now had become
even more precious to the family, was to be sacrificed.   Suddenly
one can imagine the cries of the children, the quite sob of their mother, the
sorrow in the eyes of the father who knows a blood sacrifice is required.
  For the first time, since meeting Abigail, we could truly envision
the “sacrificial lamb” of the Scriptures.

          The continued observance of Passover was a powerful object lesson for
generations of Israelites.  Every family member would be reminded not only
of God’s protection and provision when He freed them from slavery, but also of
the cost…the blood of their most precious lamb.  This Easter we consider
the final sacrifice.  Jesus Christ, the Lamb of God, perfect and precious
beyond description, was sacrificed for our sin.  Many movies and videos
have stirred the heart of man as they depict the brutal crucifixion of our
Christ, yet none can compare to the vision of Abigail.  As we celebrate our
freedom from sin and death through the resurrection of our Lord, let’s never
forget the cost.  Praise God His love and grace make us worthy of such a
sacrifice!

1 Peter 1:18-19 

“Knowing that you were not redeemed with perishable things like
silver or gold…but with precious blood, as a lamb unblemished and spotless, the
blood of Christ.”

 

The Angel waits December 24, 2023

 

She is here…she is waiting.  Our beloved Christmas tree angel has survived another year.  The years have not been kind.  Her hair continues to fall away and there is little left of her once radiant halo.  Her
misshaped hand clings to a barely recognizable candle and the glue keeping her head attached has discolored and cracked…but she is still here waiting.  She is waiting for our daughter Ashley’s arrival.  She will place her atop our tree, a tradition that gets more entertaining each year now that her dad can no longer easily lift her up to accomplish the task.  

 

Once again I find myself connected to this angel as I consider the wait. Waiting is
hard.  When my granddaughters struggle with waiting I let them know I understand… “I know it’s hard to
wait.”  My daughter-in-law sent me a sweet video of our little Brooklyn telling her friend when they were  told itwas not time for dinner yet, “My friend Nana says it’s hard to wait”.  I hear her little voice in my head today as I think about how hard it is to wait even now.  Waiting for closure, answers, direction, healing, growth…waiting for things to be clear, for conflicts to be resolved, for chaos and confusion to
settle into order and understanding…waiting is hard.  While we wait there is work to do, people to love and the hope and grace through Jesus Christ to share.

 “I wait for the Lord. My whole being waits, and in His Word I put my hope.” Psalm 130:5

Here again, the annual retelling of “The Christmas Tree Angel”.

 Merry Christmas dear friends and family.

I’m not sure where she came from. (update: someone recognized
her and informed me she is a Nuremberg angel!) I’m not even certain of her
age. (update: As a Nuremberg angel, we probably acquired her when my
family lived in Germany when dad was in the Air Force…this would make her well
over 50 yrs!)

She sat atop the Christmas tree for many of my growing up years,
quietly presiding over each holiday season.  I acquired her from my mother
many years ago.

Her gold foil, cardboard wings, once ended in perfect points
extending her stature to seven inches.  Now her wing span is slightly
reduced, as the tips went from being slightly bent, to folded, until they
eventually tore off.  Her dark red velvet dress, trimmed with gold brick
brack, fits snuggly to her waist before flowing over her cardboard form. 
Her once silky, radiant white hair, now hangs in brittle coils around her
shoulders.  A little gold foil halo covers a place on her head where some
of her hair has given way to the passage of time.

Her head and hands are made of wax, as is the candle she holds in
one hand.  I remember her as a beautiful lady, her face perfect and
delicate.  Those qualities are now faded.  Her head, once held high
and straight, has melted somewhat.  It now bows lovingly downward and a
bit to the right.  Two years ago a significant amount of time and effort
was put into re-attaching her long held candle to her now miss shaped
hand.  Yep, she’s a bit of mess you might say.  I like that about
her.

She doesn’t light up or sparkle, and quite often she is too small
for the tree, making her look even more out of place.  But I look forward
to her presence in my living room each Christmas.  Late at night, when the
tree is lit and others have gone on to bed, I find myself thinking of her and
all we have in common.

I too, know what it’s like to have my wings bent and torn.  I
know what it feels like when your body gives itself over to the challenges of
time.  My hair is no longer silky or radiant, and I only wish had a halo
to hide the places where it has become thin.  I understand the sagging of
her shoulders and the bowing of her head.  I have felt the weight every
mother bears for her family.  I know the need to bow my head in constant
prayer.   I love her imperfection.  She’s a holiday reminder
that God loves us in our imperfection
.

A love full of grace, a savior born to take on the sin of the world,
a reason to celebrate, reflected in the melted features and unraveled edges of
our Christmas tree Angel.

 

 

“It Is What It Is” December 16, 2014

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This is the third week of Advent.  Each week, four leading up to Christmas, we pause in remembrance of the birth of our Savior.  In some households a candle will be lit in recognition of each of the Advent themes.  This week we light the candle of PEACE.

“It is what it is”. I am not sure exactly when I heard this phrase for the first time. I do not recall what it was in reference to, but it made me feel uncomfortable. Since then, I have heard these words uttered countless times and each time it made my heart ache. I had only heard “It is what it is” in negative contexts I suppose. It was often spoken with a breathy sigh, a resignation of a plight, or a settling/acceptance of a bad thing.

I get it. I know there are times in life when there is just nothing anyone can do, and as one of my friends once said, “Sometimes you just have to put your big kid pants on and deal with it.” Still, it just does not feel right to proclaim a situation as beyond change, even if it is true.

I was not a fan of “it is what it is”, which is why I found it odd, that when considering the topic of “PEACE” for our advent devotion, I could not get this phrase out of my head. I had written it down as a passing thought in my notes last week. It was even scribbled in the margin of a shopping list I made a few days ago. The words kept bouncing around in my head like that ping pong ball in the old Atari games.  At first, I thought of it as a good example of resignation/hopelessness. I thought it would be a good intro into the topic of “HOPE”, but that advent theme has already passed. I had been asking God for something to share about “PEACE”.   I was sort of hoping for a scripture to roll into my life and present itself, not a negative tinged “It is what it is.”  What could THAT have to do with PEACE, God’s PEACE?

I looked the phrase up on line, seeking to find its intended meaning. Of course there were many ways it can be utilized, but for the most part, it has come to mean the following concerning situations:

Inevitable, unchangeable, unstoppable, out of one’s control, and my favorite, “C’ est la vie” (such is life)

Suddenly the phrase that was at once zinging around in my head in negative connotation, came to a complete stop and stood glaring out at me as if in neon lettering. “It is what it is.” is not always about settling for less of a thing, or accepting a negative situation… it is a confidence that when something is not in your control, you will still be okay. It is a knowing that while something is unchangeable, you are capable of moving forward.   We may not control our circumstances, but we control how we respond in our hearts.

At Christmas we are especially mindful of the year round truth that is this:

“For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” John 3:16

This is God’s PEACE…in Him we do not strive for perfection, nor do we sit condemned from our sin. In Him we find grace, unearned favor, forgiveness and life. God’s PEACE is being settled in the midst of unsettling times. We face unchangeable things, unstoppable events and we may not have control, but our God is UNCHANGEABLE, UNSTOPPABLE and always in CONTROL.

“It is what it is” once caused me to envision someone throwing their hands up in defeat…now, when I think of this phrase, instead I envision someone dropping their burden, tossing their hands in the air and falling back into His capable arms.

“For a Child will be born to us, a Son will be given to us; and the government will rest on His shoulders; and His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Eternal Father, Prince of Peace.” (Isaiah9:16)

 

Oh Baby! December 9, 2014

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V__3400 This is the second week of Advent. Each week, four leading up to Christmas, we pause in remembrance of the birth of our Savior. In some households a candle will be lit in recognition of each of the Advent themes. This week we light the candle of JOY.

 

My daughter, Ashley, was home from New York for Thanksgiving. We took advantage of her being in town for her to visit family friends, Pete and Kristin.  Kristin, and her older sister Kari, are like sisters to Ashley. They are the daughters of one of my best friends.  We have known them since Ashley was a preteen. Over the years they were always there with encouraging words, ready to listen and including her in their lives.  I know she misses seeing them both and she was glad to at least be able to see Kristin.  It was especially nice since Ashley had yet to meet Kristin and Pete’s newest addition, sweet baby Nixon.

 

The evening we arrived, Kristin’s home was already filled with family.  Pete’s mom and dad, brother, sister-in-law and their baby girl were all visiting for Thanksgiving.  I was engaging Pete’s dad in conversation when I noticed a concerned look on his face.  He looked at me and nodded toward Ashley.  “Is she okay?” he sweetly asked.   That’s when I saw it…I was so caught up in greeting people I almost missed it.

 

Kristin was standing beside Ashley after just placing baby Nixon in her arms.   Ashley, holding and seeing Nixon for the first time, was moved to tears.  She tried to turn away so no one would see her cry.  She knew we’d probably tease her.  I am pretty sure her tears surprised even her.  I was not surprised though.  I had seen her do this one other time, when she met Noah, Kari’s son, for the first time.

 

Pete’s compassionate dad continued to be concerned for her tears.  “Why is she crying?” he quietly asked me.   I assured him she was okay, but struggled with explaining “why”.  Teary eyed now myself, all I could bring myself to say was , “Its because she loves Kristin”.    He smiled, obviously relieved.

 

You see, Ashley does not cry every time she holds just any baby.  But that night, and when she held Kari’s son for the first time, she could not help but be overwhelmed.  She held and looked into the sweet face of a baby born to someone she loves dearly, someone who has loved her unconditionally.  They were tears of JOY.

 

I have thought of Ashley’s precious tears a lot this week.  In the Christmas season we are surrounded by images of baby Jesus.  What would it have been like if Mary had placed baby Jesus in my arms?  I feel certain I too would find myself moved to tears.  I know, because even as I write this, I am fighting back tears at just the thought.  I imagine holding the son of THE ONE I love completely.  Cradling Him in my arms and looking into the eyes of the son of the God who loves me unconditionally.  There would be tears, tears of JOY.

 

We may not be able to hold Him in our arms, but we can hold Him in our hearts.  May this week we consider the treasure of knowing the Son of God and forever mindful of the Joy of it all.

But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid.  I bring you good news of great JOY, that will be for all people.” Luke 2:10

 

NASCAR December 2, 2014

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    This is the first week of Advent. Each week, four leading up to Christmas, we pause in remembrance of the birth of our Savior. In some households a candle will be lit in recognition of each of  the Advent themes. This week we light the candle of HOPE.

       I was simply driving around town running a few errands when I received the first message. It came in the form of a faded bumper sticker on the car in front of me. “God is My Copilot”, it proclaimed. I looked at the empty passenger seat beside me and considered the importance those words. I would not want to go anywhere in life without God near me. He is my copilot too. I decided I needed to be more aware of God’s presence in my life.

 

The second message came as I continued on my way to grocery store. I was bobbing my head to country tunes when Carrie Underwood blared from my speakers. I was immediately caught up in the emotion of her song and soon found myself crooning along with her… “Jesus Take The Wheel…..” I sang it with passion, although not even close to being in tune. The words stirred my heart. I realized I did not want God to just be my copilot, I want Him to be my PILOT! I want Him to have the “wheel” of my life.

 

My errands were completed, and I was on my way home, when a third message came to me from a very unusual source. I am not a NASCAR fan, but I think God may be. I was pushing the radio buttons absentmindedly, just trying to find something interesting to listen to, when I stopped briefly on a station discussing NASCAR. I did not hear all of the discussion, but my mind stuck on something they mentioned in passing. In reference to a recent race they commented, “His SPOTTER could have done a better job for him there.”   A “spotter”, what is that?

 

As if the guys on the radio heard my question, they proceeded to explain that a spotter is an actual position on a NASCAR driver’s team. It is the person who sits in an observation section high above the raceway.   Apparently the drivers have limited ability to view their surroundings as they hurtle around the oval track. They cannot move their heads around very easily and therefore rely on spotters to give them the bigger picture. From their vantage point the spotters can radio to the drivers and alert them to accidents, proximity of other racers as well as giving them tips for maneuvering based on the location of the other cars.   I changed my mind. I don’t want God to just be my copilot or pilot…I want God to be my SPOTTER!

 

Yep, God used a bumper sticker, Carrie Underwood and NASCAR to “drive” the lesson home. (Great pun right?) As I finally pulled into my driveway after running my errands, I bowed my head and prayed.

 

“God, my hope and trust is in You alone. You are more than qualified to be my copilot, pilot and spotter in this journey of life. I want to fully and faithfully follow You.”

        As we enter into this Christmas season and celebrate the birth of Christ, I find myself especially mindful of who God is in my life. His birth, life, death and resurrection are the reason for my every HOPE. Through Him I know forgiveness and grace. In Him I find direction. Without Him I would be hopelessly lost in every way.

That little baby we sing about in a manger….yep, He is my copilot, pilot and spotter….He is my Hope.

“Rest your hope fully upon the grace that is to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ.” 1Peter 1:13